mama's got it in a lazy way

I tried to put the baby down for a nap in her crib, twice. It didn't work, even though she was curling up on the floor while I vacuumed. My days are full of what ifs, much more so than it was before. What if I had kept vacuuming? Would she have fallen asleep? What if I had let her cry in her crib until she fell asleep?

So she's asleep on my lap. I heard a loud explosion and a police siren outside. I really wish I could go see.

Instead, I'm browsing blogs, reading until I'm no longer interested. Surprise, surprise, the world online isn't much different than the world at large.

And back to active parenting...